Emma and her bestfriend

Emma and her bestfriend Belle

My New Purse!!

I got this Chanel bag today in Chinatown!

I definitely think its real considering they made me "Sneak" into a hidden room to pick out which one I wanted. Who knows! I also got a matching wallet, and Chanel Sunglasses.
Me and by Hubby had so much fun!

Dinner was a bust, and it was so effing hot outside.. but nothing is better than being with my man :)

Alex got turtles! haaa

My birthday!!!

Its my birthday today!!! I am 22! Yay!

Today I spent most of the day downtown in Manhattan. I went to the world trade center site, and then went shopping. I went to a winery, and met a real nice local newyorker guy who owned it. We talked for a long time, and he told me of alot of places to go to!

I went to the famous Murrays in Greenwich Village on Bleeker
and picked up some Brie for me and Alex! <3

http://www.murrayscheese.com/

Then I took a cab back to Alex's apartment and got all pretty'd up because we went to see:

Sex in the City!! The best movie ever!! It was GREAT, and even more great that Alex came with me!!
After that we got in bed and ate our Brie! PERFECT PERFECT day :)

Crazy Week

Yesterday I went to the amusement park. I had a great time, but couldnt stand stupid assholes who screamed and were annoying. These usually were kids that were from middleschool-early highschool. Please.. get a life.

Anyways it was really fun, only everything was expensive, and some of the rides HURT me.

Tomorrow is Emmas birthday, and so for the most part I have been getting ready for that.
We are going to Chuck E Cheese for lunch, and then having cake at home. I ordered a Care Bear cake for her.. which she will just LOVE.

5 days and it will be my birthday !! woohoo! lucky me I will be in NYC with alex, which I leave the 9th for.

I really hope this only brings us closer together... I really want to figure out what to do with my life because presently, I am not doing much of ANYTHING ;P

I really hope he doesnt want to stay in New York becuase I really dont want to live there... I am scared that if he gets the job, things just might now workout between us. I will be there a week, so we will see how everything goes.

Some things I need to get taken care of before going to NYC are:

• Get alittle tan. Even if alex doesnt like me tan I feel like utter shit when I am this ghostly white.
• get a pedicure
• and a manicure
• Find outfits that I am going to wear... UGH.
• find a bag big enough that can fit all of my shiiiiit

Emma, Three years ago today!

blaaaaah

i feel like crap today. I wanted to write a blog, but have nothing to say. booo

Questions

I haven't been on to Blog in awhile, So here is an update.

I am dating Alex, and have been off and on for about a year now. He now lives in Manhattan and it is getting incredibly hard not having him physically near me.

I really see a future with us both, but as of right now, he is busy with his internship, and I just can't wait around... I have to start planning what I would like to do, with/without him. I cant "bank" on our relationship working out, I have my life to live and I have to make decisions for me and my daughter.

Finding jobs here has proven to be one of the hardest tasks I have been faced with by moving here. I really would like to find something soon, that way I can make my next move.

I am almost completely out of debt. I am very proud of myself for getting out, even though I didn't have a lot of it.


My daughter will be 3 in just 4 days! :( this is so depressing for me. It is really going by too fast. I really hope to be completely settled somewhere that I want to stay forever by the time she is in Preschool, or kindergarten.


I have alot of unanswered questions, and alot of thinking to do. Hopefully everything pans itself out soon, I would love some answers.

btw, here is a pic of my Belle. <3


and my other love

What I miss

What I miss

Ok, so this is what I miss about Alex:

-the playlist you made for me
-going on long drives to the beach
-jamba juice
-chipotle
-walmart at 2 am
-chess
-making homemade pizzas with you... bbq chicken our fav!
-drinking Alcohol and you getting me alittle tipsy. (sorry I am a lightweight!)
-laying on your couch
-feeding your dog
-Phillipe park
-waking up, and looking out your back window to see palm trees, the bay, and DOLPHINS!
-drawing ALL over you
-you tackling me and not letting me out of your bed
-being humped by Elmo
-Watching Tales from the CRYPT!
-eating chinese, and drinking champagne on the beach
-making daquiris
-getting "wino-ed" out
-you wanting to suck on my toe
-you wanting your hand in my mouth 24/7
-sweatpants!
-your Evil spiral staircase
-the pan!!! oh shitttt
-walking together
-you being 10 feet taller than me, and me coming up to your chest
-walking on the beach... even though I kept screaming because I thought something was going to get me
-you rubbing vaseline on my dry elbows. ha!
-eating lunch on the porch
-not being able to get the hood down to the prowler. omg... but still driving it anyways.
-talking about Ravioli 24/7
-Our new york accents
-Me using YOUR flat iron! haaa
-Me beating you at EVERY game we played, and laughing my ass off til I was crying
-watching sweeney todd
-your hand on my knee every time we went for a ride! <3
-my chipped black nail polish... the one nail that was bare. ha
-taking pictures, that didnt turn out good
-me wearing that manson mask and freaking you out
-always wearing my sweatshirt
-bedhead!
-me braiding your hair!haha, and you liking it! <3
-OrBit!

that is little bit of what went down that weekend. I cant wait to see you in Manhattan. I love our "little" adventures!!!!

I always want to be with you!!!

I love him!

Josiah Leming that is!!


The ship was sinking; we were drinking, singing one last song,
Casting our gold into the ocean.
You grabbed a bucket, started screaming, "Come on, come on"
Trying to slow the downward motion.
Back in the kingdom we were kings and queens and oh, so strong
That God himself could not contain us.
We never thought we'd see the shorter end of sword and gun
Now god himself could never save us.

Waves of silver, waves of gold
Are coming down to take me,
To separate my body from my soul
And Jesus leaves or takes me.
Hopes of heaven, fears of hell
And what's the chance I'll make it.
When all my other plans have failed,
And I've tried so hard to fake it.

We started sinking, drinking water from the open sea
Losing our bodies to the ocean.
You grabbed my hand and started screaming, "rescue me"
Trying to slow the downward motion.
Back in the kingdom we were kings and queens and oh, so strong
That God himself just had to show us.
We never thought we'd see the colder side of land and sea
But He's the only one who knows us.

Waves of silver, waves of gold
Are coming down to take me,
To separate my body from my soul
And Jesus either leaves or takes me.
Hopes of heaven, fears of hell
And what's the chance I'll make it.
When all my other plans have failed,
And I've tried so hard to fake it.

Emma got this today!!



I was contemplating whether I should buy her the crayola colored sand, but it was like 13 dollars a bag!! definitely wasn't worth it. I wasn't sure if it would stain her clothes or not. I did pay extra money to buy the WHITE SOFT sand ! She loves it already! :)

Ellen

I love Ellen ! she is so real, and talks about real stuff. This is awful, and something that needs to stop :(